Random thoughts about... well.... not much

Why do I always think of great blog topics to share with you internets when I'm never in front of the computer? And why can't I think of any of those typically brillant Amy thoughts when I feel guilty enough to sit down and spend some time with my thoughts? Hmmm.... Universal questions, me thinks.
Anyway, I've been thinking about how blogs are like High School. This may be a limited thought out process, but hang with me.
So, many people desire to have friends or have the desire to be cool enough to be popular but not cool enough to care or state the desire to be popular b/c that would be uncool. Follow? Okay, great. So I think it's the same for blogs. Those who write them, I've found in my limited experience reading them, don't do it just for themselves but to also please some person or anonymous reader. Of course, if you were to ask a typical blog writer they would claim that they "just do it for themselves and screw everyone else who disagrees!" But I think that ultimately they are looking for approval. Either through the people they know who read the blog or through comments left by random readers. I must admit to this frailty.
You see, I want to post my most personal thoughts and feelings out there and feel safe from the glaring eye of my family and some friends. But at the same time I wonder why should I even be doing this time-waster? No one even reads it (though I have proof to the contrary, I just like to complain about how unpopular my blog is), I say to myself. I think I check it more often than anyone else does. I guess the upside of that is that I'm my own biggest fan.
I have found most of the blogs I read through another pit of HS-thenest.com Oh god, this is my internet vice! Like most internet forum/communities, people join, make idiots of themselves, fight like girls in 7th grade, discuss nothing relevant to the board at hand, and share links to their blogs. I will admit to 3 of the 5 above. And no, I will not tell you which 3. But I think the sharing of blog links is where people try to make their lives sound interesting and build up a loyal following of internets glued to the everyday boring events of people's lives. We're all just voyeurs. And I'll admit to being fasinated by others mundane lives. Although, sometimes you get a really funny or inspiring story if you can stick with it.
And most of these people I don't even know IRL. I would say that I regularly follow 8 blogs. And by regularly follow, I mean check once a day for updates. And being the hypocrite I am, I'm pissed when I don't get a new post once a week. I'm terrible at this, but trying people! Of those, I know or used to know 3. Less than half! Ack! But I get so caught up in the newest adventures their kids are going through, wanting them to get pregnant, wanting them to stay pregnant, greiving w/ them from afar when they have a loss (whether a pet or a pregnancy), learning from them, being inspired by them, being grateful to not have the troubles they have, being grossed out by them, the list goes on and on.
Sorry to get all emotional on you. Back to how blogs=HS.
I have also fallen into the trap of wanting my blog to be pretty and cute and attractive and slim my bottom half. Sound like a teenage girls wish for herself? Thus the current look to the blog that I still haven't been able to figure out how to fix. Nor the energy and patience I know it will take to give it the remodel it deserves. Oh well, it's functional.
So those are my completely incomplete thoughts on why blogging is like reliving HS without all the acne, body odor, and requirements for physical education.